Sadness and Depression

I ask myself this question a lot “Why haven’t I killed myself yet?” I have one reason And one reason only My baby brother Suffering from depression takes a toll It will also eat away at your soul I don’t know what to do I love him so much I want to see him grow So I put on this big show Never letting anyone see through me I don’t want help I just want to end it all All my sadness and depression My own way He’s only 4 He has a bright future and so much more But what am I? “Why haven’t I killed myself yet?” I’m continuing to suffer All for him Everything I do Is for him I don’t want him to be broken even though he wouldn’t understand I’m stuck here in this cursed land Continuously growing my obsession with guns But like I said It’s all for him Without him There’s no me I’ll continue my journey and hope to see some good come out of this.