Sad Lonely Me Flux

It must be 8 years plus now Without a lover The touch of another And I am 44 years of age Do you think that is strange? Because I know others do I know people question And given the circumstances so would I What is wrong with him Is he Arthur or is he Mather But the simple truth is I have become so good At being on my own My lust has gone For putting upon My happiness unto another If I have made it thus far And I set the bar above my station Then what the hell Is the point of letting go Of what I am accustomed What I have learned to miss Yes I do miss But I can live with An empty bed And the loneliness in my head And my heart of heart's That other's seem to can't I am not blunt or dead inside And the though of arriving home alone Sows ever increasing regret But I still haven't met The 1 to break the cycle And I don't think I ever will And there is no pill No epiphany No solution No resolution But thankfully I can rely on the fact It doesn't consume my time My shoulders are broad And I can ill afford To fall victim of love Although everyone wants me 2 And so do i But if it has not happened yet Then so be it It's not the end of the world It is what it is