Rollercoaster

I never liked heights, so I guess that's why I get scared every time emotions are running high Emotions running fast and I'm not one to encourage exercise, but I want to be healthy But my health feels like just enough to reach and too far to grasp I have good weeks and bad days but lately it's all been trash And no matter how often I take it out Negativity keeps pilling up like trash Sometimes I love you, sometimes I love you not That's a letter to myself I wrote when I was young And some things never change I know I can change this perception, but this is inception, and I haven't woken up from the nightmare When I do I hope I still remember my dreams Because sometimes they are hard to recall I hate that dream when I just free fall until I'm conscious Wish I actually listened to my conscience Life is not science it's a choice, but a few experiments never hurt anybody Well let's just say it's a lesson p.s. I hate heights