Right Now.....................

Right now, I'm a look back on the things I said I wsih I could go back and regret the things I did That sunny Monday, morning that I layed in bed I thought I would become a women Playing roles and playing with myself instead Right now I look back on the things I did Makin me wifey, It was like playin house Giving me a ring that made my finger turn green, and lately its been bending into something so serene Right now I , look back on the things I did A capable girl corrupted with swirls Laying down on my back and never rewarding For feeling like trash A piece looked upon as gold but intrepreted as silver Traded in at the pawn shop Society looks upon me as nothing more than a 25cent lolly pop Right now I look back on the things I did Never regretted meeting this fella Throught he would bring me more joylike cinderella A nubian queen turned around walking the streets with her head hanging down. I pray a price whiich isalways right. Always let in the store or a lonely draw. I'm always left behind, because of my own kind. I withdraw from inner being, I relax because I have no meaning. I am quiet because no one listens. And I vow to be a Christian. I am complicated and you can't figure me out. I am lost in this world and I want to find a way out. Right now I look back on the things I said I might be a hypocrite but what I say and what do can only be a unite. I rise to the occasion , of showing myself approved But I constantly value, of how the world looks at me and you A long lost self worth nothing and no wealth. A constant backfire of shots flying at my back I lost apart of me while going through trash Trash I call it, Another meaning for men I change sizeswhile I add on pounds. I constantly eat and one comes 1 week and then he suddenly leaves me weak I thought I had a good one but he lied and decieved. Now I'm on the next one, which he really seemsas if he has me. Right now I look back on the things I said. Right now I back on what I regret. A cinderella or snowwhite that just woke up. I realize that I really need to get in touch.