Restart

Sometimes I sit by myself and I think of our past Having no idea then - that this long it would even last In 2015 you showed me a fake side of you We knew from the beginning you weren't telling me the truth But as fake as you were in the past we were stronger Now eight years later we're struggling to keep it up any longer There was smiles, laughter, & memories when you wore the mask And now we're so lost and confused, trying to repair these gaps Heartbroken because I don't know what happened along the way But I fear after all this pain - we'll never be okay Baby you have the wrong image of me in your head So you fight me, push me away, and choose to hate me instead Nothing I do will ever be able to prove how I feel for you But remember - from the beginning - I always remained true The heart inside my chest grows weaker every single passing day Nothing I do will ever make you satisfied - it'll always be your way Yet still you say you want marriage and a family with me, too You're wishing and hoping what we've lost will someday renew Jaded and lost in the winding darkness I weep with little to no regret You were always the apple of my eye, but emotionally and physically you left You've successfully indoctrinized me into being alone all the time While in our bones and spirit - you were never truly MINE From the start your tongue spit poisonous lies Here I remain, lost on a dusty shelf I sit as your ball-in-chained prize The tendons and veins shred through my jagged misunderstood heart So I'll sit here all by myself and cry - yearning for us to restart