Rest

1091 days. I remember having covid lying lifeless on my couch. There was no recent thought of you, as your presence within my life, I had already been without. I was in so much physical pain. I had no idea that spiritual pain could cancel that out, breaking, and weakening every connection from me to this physical world I felt miles from, still sometimes even now. One call for my fall. I felt this shock to my insides. I died. I felt my spirit leave my body trying to take my soul, to protect it from the anguish her death was sure to impose. They called this grief. A phenomenon. A complex human experience. No scientific way to get through loss quickly or to eliminate the painful feeling that comes still, when I mention your name. 5 days short of your death, 12 of your life. Still, the remainder of Eternity here without you that loss, could never be measured with time. Complex. Much like our relationship before you left. I always imagined we would eventually reconnect. I catch you up and fill you in and you’ll tell me all the new activities you enrolled yourself in, I miss it. You were so talented. Guess that chat can still happen, just will look a little different than I initially imagined. I miss you, Trina. I never thought life could be lived without you. Nearly three years and I miss you like I did when you were here. When I thought I had time to make amends. Time is not my friend. Myocardial contusion. Bruised. No, not by a physical force. But the loss of your energy, makes my heart feel sore. This doesn’t mean I am weak. It means I loved and love you with all of me. Every piece of me. Regardless of the distance between you and me. Our souls are forever bonded for our reconnection in eternity. I love you Katrina hope you are resting peacefully.