Repenting Enduring Repeating

Repenting Enduring Repeating

Lost in an abyss of thoughts
Disappointments oblivion brought.
Self-centered loathing caught.
This, instead of perfection sought.

Confusion instead of understanding –
Weariness instead of perkiness –
Paranoia instead of certainty –
This, instead of gladness sought.

Why?  I read words and want to cry.
I seek hope, but wish to die.
I have lost the will to try.
This, never-ending onslaught…

Bombards my former good thoughts.
And to life, has a great void brought.
Satan’s sickness…must have been caught.
This, instead of perfection sought.

Stop.  Stop!  Stop and set an ending –
Remember moments of happiness –
Look around and see reality –
Accept the good gifts that life has brought.

There is too much beauty to wail and cry.
Life is good; wish not to die.
Endure to the end…always try.
Disregard evil onslaughts.

I will let God’s beauty fill my thoughts.
Accept the love that to earth He brought.
Sing His hymns; find great joy sought.
Receiving perfection by His blood bought.

(Repenting…enduring…repeating…)

© July 9, 2010
Dane Smith-Johnsen

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Carolyn Devonshire

Date: 7/9/2010 11:35:00 AM

We all battle depression at times, Dane Ann. "Repenting, enduring, repeating" is a lifelong quest. Very wise thoughts, beautifully expressed! Love, Carolyn

Joe Flach

Date: 7/9/2010 8:04:00 AM

Dane Ann, this poem reads like someone going through the five stages of grief. Whatever it is that has caused you grief, please know that the Denial, Anger, Bargaining and Depression are stages everyone goes through. Sounds like you are reaching the Acceptance stage. I hope that is true. Hang in there and be strong. Let your poetic talents help nurture you. Joe

Joyce Johnson

Date: 7/9/2010 7:14:00 AM

I am so sorory dear Dane Ann that you have been sad. I hope things are better. I thank you for reading and commenting on my poetry, Love, Joyce

Sara Kendrick

Date: 7/9/2010 6:50:00 AM

Enjoyed the read..We all have those times in our lives where emotion just takes over and it is hard to do what we should....I don't know what the problem is that caused the weeping but sometimes that is part of healing...There is beauty out there if we wish to look for it...Sometimes we just have to make ourselves look for it...Thanks for the lovely comments on my work "The Sun Rose Red"...I am going to soup mail you in a few..Sara