Remnants of Ma

I really didn’t know my mother I knew her moods But, I didn’t know her And I really don’t think she knew her children She knew our names...mostly But, she didn’t know us I know my mother loved singing I heard my mother sing "How much is that doggie in the window” And One of my favorites "Charming Billy" I know she liked to cook I know she read The Godfather and Valley Of The Dolls I know she liked having a party I know family holidays STRESSED her out I know she had many friends I know she drank a lot I know she went out a lot I know she drank and went out a lot with her many friends I know she had many blackouts I know she could go from very pleasant to wicked mean, instantly, especially when drinking I know that she hated my father I think she hated my father for not doing what needed to be done to make it all work out I think maybe she resented her sons for being his sons I know my mother was brutalized by her father I know my mothers father followed my mother wherever she went as a teen because he didn’t trust her I know my mothers father called her terrible names that a father should not call a daughter I know that my mother married an alcoholic who gambled too much and beat her for his own sins I wish I knew other things instead of these things about my mother But... I know my mother would have liked me to remember other things too...