Release

I stand trembling, Writhing in apprehension When I hear you sigh through your teeth As you rush past me Bubbling now, My stomach swirls My spine warms me with shivers And my heart wants desperately to lift The further you go, The more every part of me sinks I nibble my lip to fight the tears To wrestle the heat in my cheeks To resist releasing the boiling bile inside Then, you return From the corner of my eye, you draw near I waver whether to wait or go Then, you happen You are there, and absolutely nothing Makes sense The sun is raging The room is blurry You stand there, shockingly clear Uttering quick your nervous words Eons pass in a second And I am still standing there, ancient as dust Feebly, frantically, I reply, but you… You have already disappeared… The bold doors closing, No uncertainty in their arctic shut The release thereafter is beyond Torturous I feel no relief Only despairing resolve