Regrets

Once upon a time I was in love with him beyond any balance of the imagination that you could ever imagine or even read in the story. My heart was so content it was full of the passion for love . My heart pumped ambition through the veins in my body and I did everything everything any good woman could to ensure that the temporary happiness and content would last forever. I gave all of me everything all I had all the time relentlessly never taken anything back. To the point and times I love him more than I love myself even though there was many days moments minutes that I know he didn't deserve it but I wanted to be loved so that I refuse to let go I just clutch on to the thought that the will of the fact knowing that someone loves you so much that you couldn't help but love him back. I'm never gave or ask for anything that would ever comprise the human body. Or even anything that that I wasn't willing to give or bear upon myself! But now I'm lost and lonely my heart has been abused tattered Shattered and broken I'll because I chose myself to love someone that was incapable of loving their self or me enough because of their own insecurities. My personal feelings should never ever have to be compromise or put on hold or never taking into consideration ! I should never have more bad days then good one especially with someone that you want to love forever why should Fight to prove that I love you or that I'm still in love especially if you fighting a battle within yourself where you wake up every morning I hate the man you are? Your Falsified the attempts of loyalty are extremely embarrassing and they coming really at high-cost. Always worried about how other people think of how I should run my house but you never paint accurate picture because if you did to see how sorry are. Even as an artist you cant take a canvas and paint a picture because you're too busy trying to find you. Everyday my life is a struggle because I try to take the broken little boy and create a man. And unfortunately in this battle that you seem to think is a relationship I was injured because I gave more than you ever could so as wipe continuous tears off my cheek Not not because I finally mustered up the courage to pack my bags and walk away but the fact that I can never get all the time and relentless hours that I put in to this into the bottomless pit called you.