Reflection
You look back at your life
Wishing you had more to show
Wishing you had done more
You find yourself periodically saying
That you've always wanted to do this and that
But never had the time, never took the time
You have these unfinished dreams....
They remained only dreams
Dreams that only grew brighter with years
But became duller with time
Until they faded away all together
You grow old wondering what stopped you
What you could've done different
Maybe you would have enjoyed life for what it was
Did you have someone to share it with
Would that have even mattered
Maybe if you chose the path less chosen
Maybe if you took a stand
Would you be wondering of the life you led
Could've been so much more
If you only did instead of just wanted
If you made it happen instead of pining after
Would you still have these regrets
Walls seem to close in around me
As the truth is finally revealed
And I find myself many years older
Reflecting back on my life
Realizing I have nothing to show for it
Realizing I have no clue who I am
Maybe I am who someone made
Like a doll off a factory line
Someone else's design
Asking myself a thousand questions
Why did I settle
why did I give up
Why did I give in
Why did I lose hope
Why did I lose love
Why didn't I live
Why didn't I speak up
And I realize I'll end up stuck
Never able to be truly happy
Was it all worth this life I led
I had dug a ever-growing grave
and one by one, piece by piece
I threw a little of myself inside
Down into the deep cold darkness
Hard to have hope of what could be
If there's no support or encouragement
Once satisfied with the pieces left behind
I started to fill it up with damp dirt
Out of sight out of mind
No more longing of what could've been
All that is left is a mere marker that reads
Here lies what meant the most to her
And this hits me with such force
Can't believe this has gone on so long
Why didn't I see it all before
Was I really so blind to it all
Did I really sacrifice so much
To make others happy and satisfied
And for what do I have to show
Nothing but a hole starting to fill
I won't be looking back down the road
Wishing I had stayed true to myself
Copyright © A Rambling Righting Riley - Shauna Riley | Year Posted 2010
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