Redemption Blues

REDEMPTION BLUES I SLUMBER I slithered through, I waded through Its bitter pills I tasted, I had its bitter feel at the tip of my tongue, A taste I was never to forget for long. Moments of tears Moments of bitterness Moments of sorrow Moments of laughter Moments of pain Moments of sanity and insanity; I saw them all. II Several times, When I sit on the meadow Gazing at the moon and the stars And how they illuminated the earth, I remembered the moments when I cried myself to frenzy, Several moments I laughed senselessly, aimlessly and crazily Like the demented man on the streets. In my moments of insanity I was torn between two worlds: Sanity and Insanity. The world I belonged, I couldn’t define, I was nowhere, just somewhere lost forever In an uncanny web of uncertainty. THE REAWAKENING III Sometimes, in my docile state, I saw my friends ride the best of cars Wear the best of clothes. Eyes closed, In my quiet moment, In my state of bitter meditation I remember a quote I once heard: “Hope is what keeps you going when all hope is lost, So never you lose hope on hope, hope will one day Take you to the place of your dreams.” Hope! I never knew what it meant or how it felt, But intuition told me that it must be something; Something that affirms and cements ones faith in something. IV I could feel an overwhelming sweet feeling enveloping my entire body, Then did I know I was on the right track. Flipping through the pages of the Bible, I saw the story of Jabez, Born a child of sorrow, he cried, prayed to God And got his redemption V Sullen, kneeling, Arms outstretched to the Heavens I called out the name of the Lord, I never knew if He existed or not, But I could feel His aura in my heart and around me. Tears flooding my eyes, Joyful feeling engulfs me, And I could hear a voice from the Heavens and within me, Telling me “don’t give up” Only cowards give up the struggle in life. You are a warrior, go out to the world and tell them it is not over, You can do it again”. Smiles all over my face, I rise up, step out of the alcove. Gazing into the skies, I could feel a warm cool breeze sweeping me all over. I step out onto the streets, My life brand new, Life will never be the same again. Tis a new day, a day full of hope and grace, I had once lost faith in myself and in everything.