Recover

My life was in shambles But then I discovered. I couldn't get over her My heart had to recover. My days were filled with sadness My life was in ruins. I couldn't do anything right I had no idea what I was doing. The days seemed to get longer They just didn't end. Life got so hard without My soulmate & best friend. The nights were even worse I couldn't get any rest. I missed my wife, with her cover-hogging self & her sweet caress. I couldn't concentrate I had too much heartache. My heart was hurting too much It was too much to take. My eyes were red From all the crying I had done. My soul became empty I withdrew from everyone. My family reached out to me But I too far gone. I contemplated suicide I had no will to go on. My children worried about their father. Why is he acting this way? Their innocence couldn't comprehend Why I was in such disaray. The few friends I had called & I didn't answer. This heartache I was dealing with Was an emotional cancer. I finally had an epiphany I knew what I had to do. I had to get her out of my mind & come to grips that we were through. I prayed for understanding & for inner peace. The Lord heard my prayers & this heartache was released. He gave me a new strength That I never knew I had. God made me realize That my life isn't so bad. He took away the dark cloud That had consumed my soul. He gave me a new way of thinking Gave me more control. He took the frown away That was on my face. He replaced it with a smile Because now I live in his grace. He knew my love for her was real He knows I'll always love her. But God's kept me sane & he's helping my heart recover.