Recognition

It’s not even lyrics that I’m writing 
It’s the feelings that I’m fighting 
When they striking like lightning 
Nightmares so realistically frightening 
I’m struggling to wake up
I can’t wake up!
Oh God I can’t wake up!
I’m stuck in a cycle 
Like I Break up,
fight just to make up
Insomniac so I stay up
Manic 
these emotions are stuck way up
After days landsliding
they come crashing down
When I need a supportive shoulder
I see not a soul around 
I’m fighting just to maintain this little bit of Spiritual ground 
But There’s no sound escaping
From these breaths that I’m takin 
Got me feeling like I’m racing 
Heart pounding in my chest 
Adrenaline in my blood lacing
No one sees the tests that I’m facing
Faith shaken
Heart breakin
Lost so much it’s been life takin
Making mistakes like my name is mistaken
Lord forgive me 
It’s my guilt that I’m stating 
Not expecting to be skating
Ready to face You because 
God your love is life changing
I had been too far estranged 
Enraged and caged
Dealing with too much strain
All the years living with Shame 
causing me mental pain
Too much stress for my frame
Looking at my past through dirty windows
Understanding why it’s called window pain
I don’t want to be burning in eternal flame 
Lord hear me!
I call upon Your Name!
Jesus lead me to the River of ever living water 
The Son, The Spirit, the all Forgiving Father
The place of peace
The Oasis for My Soul
Lord take the wheel of my life
I submit to You
It’s Your Will in control
I’m willing to do what I’m told
Reading in the The Proverbs
That The Wisdom You gave to Solomon
Is Worth more than my weight in Gold
How is it You can give me new life
I was lost in my sin
Til my blood ran cold
I have known a Love so Bold
A God so Big 
He brought life to them old dried bones!
I know Your still on Your Throne
I give my praise and my love to You
You have fed me 
And led me
To a place that I can call home
I’m never alone 
Even though at times I may feel solitude
I’m a solid dude 
Battling with the thoughts and my attitude
Get lost in it sometimes
But You still know the lat of my location 
And my longitude
So I give it all to You
I’ll follow You
I want to drink from the Cup Of Life
Not swim in the pride of fools
There’s a price to pay
For these broken rules
The power of life over death 
resides in the tongue
I want to be speaking Real Life
Like the One You Call Son
Lord let me live it 
And state it 
Let Your Will be done
Til Your Kingdom come
Amen.

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