Recognition

It’s not even lyrics that I’m writing It’s the feelings that I’m fighting When they striking like lightning Nightmares so realistically frightening I’m struggling to wake up I can’t wake up! Oh God I can’t wake up! I’m stuck in a cycle Like I Break up, fight just to make up Insomniac so I stay up Manic these emotions are stuck way up After days landsliding they come crashing down When I need a supportive shoulder I see not a soul around I’m fighting just to maintain this little bit of Spiritual ground But There’s no sound escaping From these breaths that I’m takin Got me feeling like I’m racing Heart pounding in my chest Adrenaline in my blood lacing No one sees the tests that I’m facing Faith shaken Heart breakin Lost so much it’s been life takin Making mistakes like my name is mistaken Lord forgive me It’s my guilt that I’m stating Not expecting to be skating Ready to face You because God your love is life changing I had been too far estranged Enraged and caged Dealing with too much strain All the years living with Shame causing me mental pain Too much stress for my frame Looking at my past through dirty windows Understanding why it’s called window pain I don’t want to be burning in eternal flame Lord hear me! I call upon Your Name! Jesus lead me to the River of ever living water The Son, The Spirit, the all Forgiving Father The place of peace The Oasis for My Soul Lord take the wheel of my life I submit to You It’s Your Will in control I’m willing to do what I’m told Reading in the The Proverbs That The Wisdom You gave to Solomon Is Worth more than my weight in Gold How is it You can give me new life I was lost in my sin Til my blood ran cold I have known a Love so Bold A God so Big He brought life to them old dried bones! I know Your still on Your Throne I give my praise and my love to You You have fed me And led me To a place that I can call home I’m never alone Even though at times I may feel solitude I’m a solid dude Battling with the thoughts and my attitude Get lost in it sometimes But You still know the lat of my location And my longitude So I give it all to You I’ll follow You I want to drink from the Cup Of Life Not swim in the pride of fools There’s a price to pay For these broken rules The power of life over death resides in the tongue I want to be speaking Real Life Like the One You Call Son Lord let me live it And state it Let Your Will be done Til Your Kingdom come Amen.