Reclaim Myself

Unconditional love I bestow him My entire being it seems he owns Thoughts of him engulf my mind So why am I constantly alone? Forgiveness for all his discretions Stupidity apparently all mine What seems to draw me to him? Ah yes, love is blind. How long will I let him forsake me? My heart his playground of pain Promises with no meaning Does he want me to feel only disdain? Happiness it does elude me So dependent on someone else Sadness my constant companion When will I reclaim myself?