Ptsd I Don'T Want To Sleep

I know I'm really tired I just don't want to sleep I guess I'm just really wired Dreams will make me weep I'm scared to see those things and sounds Locked deep inside my brain Make me sweat and wriggle around Makes me think that I'm insane Rational thinking is the cure Its easier said than done When your thoughts are so obscure Rationality is to far gone Stay awake with my relief Is the action I shall do My inner thought bare belief Share them all with you Anger resentment on oneself Is a starter just for ten Nice and calm me sat on the shelf It's happening all too often Guilt that burns within ones soul Is hotter than volcano lava Need to find the deepest hole And cool it like a bottle of cava Worthlessness is another one But how can this be the case For advice i give to everyone But I can't keep up the pace Failure is the biggest thing It hits you like a rock Needing help is so belittleing You want to crawl into a sock I could of said an obscenity In that last verse of course But this I say with sincerity I will get back on my horse These feelings now I've let out Are because I'm so upset So I write in form or shout To be infront of the net Glad to be on this mortal coil Walk head high once again Get sleep at night with no spoil Black dog inflict no pain Goodnight "sleepwell"