Principle of intention

,,karma", most people would say. Yeah, I wished he would distance from me and when he did it made me feel that bad air is everywhere. The karma wasn't when he distanced, my intention to show him I don't like him anymore and try to heal made a process, it did hit me like a car. But I feel being in a coma. It hopes it stays like that. Even though with hurt in sleep, I still can sense a kind of relieve and say. ,,I now can live and manage things with out looking forward of what he might think of my actions. But what I think. And god."