Pressure Induced Rant

I'm more than half way to the gates or so the statistics fancy to say. Seen a lot but need to see a lot more haven't suffered or laughed enough need a few more scuffs and scars need to grow up but I'm trending down need to hide pain and struggle gracefully strengthen the weaknesses-maintain the strengths. Though I don't have enough mental mortar. need to toss these streaks of jealousy in the pit need to pare down that gigantic bucket list reach a couple of goals-go for one last blitz. but I'm running low on energy and time where are those auxiliary tanks of fuel and time I need to pray more? have I done enough for family-friends need to pray more have I done enough for god need to be more humble have I done enough for myself. I've got to do more for others to help them reach their goals but what about mine i'm running low on fuel and time I've got to stop whining. be a man-struggle in silence The universe is 14 billion years old I have to iron all this mess out in 73 years or so. That's a lot to ask of a man who's having short term memory lapses I need to pray for others more-and mean it