Powder

I tried to smoke away the pain, Rolled it into a blunt and lit it. I breathe it all in to feel something, I blow out to release the suffering. Too anxious for my own good, I pop a pill every now and then. The pills stop me from overthinking, They give me a moment of peace. I wish I could turn my thoughts Into alcoholic shots. I wanna black out from my thoughts, Forget them and wake up hungover. Let me crush up my bad memories, And snort them with my diary pages. Replace those bad moments with The good ones I recreated with drugs. These night terrors don’t stop at sunset, ?And the clock hasn’t even struck 12 yet. I’ll take my dose of Vivarin, And fight the demon that’s appearing. My body can’t hold up the abuse, Each time I’m down in the blues. I’ll try to get high off my own pain, I’ll use anything to stimulate my brain. I promise next time I won’t overdose, Even if that’s what I feel like doing the most.