Polar Opposites

Up and Down Happy and Sad Sky to the Ground Ecstatic then Depressed... I feel like a roller coaster, On a never ending track. A smile is more than I can handle When I feel attacked, Ignored and Outcasted Boiling and Frustrated Just go away, So I can die inside. They push me And shove me I break and they leave No one i trust fully with my mind Because I am used He wants me there with him When I want him here with me I HAVE to be there and he's not here with me Throwing me over the edge Into a never ending abyss Of heartache and depression I just want to sleep Never wake up So I don't have to deal with this Emotional Turmoil Craving to be bound by no one Instead of attached at the hip I desire freedom and the warmth Of the world itself Not JUST another person I feel like a wolf trying to become human My heart is too wild to stay "civilized" My only fault is me drunk off of love I wish to be sober for once And to have a limitless life ...But I don't want to hurt him I gave him my heart and my body What did I get? Material things? I don't know but it's not something I can hold physically Will I ever know what life has for me Instead of my internal suffering...