Please Let Me Go
the illness clung like poison ivy to the foundations of her resolve
poisoning hornets injected her wings and she was stung into arrest
Maria did not know what was worse the cancer or the failed cure
the proud woman now gaunt and cachectic stopped to care which
would give her the final release from suffering in dying and beyond
the advent of secondaries spelt the death sentence and hope receded
as a pragmatist she thought about damage limitation and self-control
had hidden a stash of Morphine solution and a few surplus Valiums
a gun would be too messy but 'I shall pull the trigger of a giant syringe'
I need to survive until
Linda’s birthday
Anna’s graduation
my wedding anniversary
have to stay strong for Cecil
a few more days
won’t hurt me
although nausea
delirious confusion
suggested otherwise
she had arranged her final affairs planned a funeral party and cremation
Highway to Hell instead of Stairway to Heaven for she would not change
her atheist beliefs because of the threat of a punitive reaper that disgusted her
after death I shall be survivor in memories only and the show must go on
she remembered
that first kiss
tying the knot
the Harley in India
the memoirs she wrote
saved files and photos on a computer's eternity after the hardware would crash
I -cloud her link to the past and the future an un-changeable PDF document
as much as they can for narratives write themselves in of posthumous beholders
her last concerns were that she'd be too weak to connect cannula and plunger
that kidneys liver heart gave up before she would call in the ultimate sojourn
that somebody deposed the body folded her hands of course not in any prayer
but for she valued symmetry balance harmony over doubt and contradictions
Maria won her
terminal battle
right of her passage
proud in victory
had the last laugh
when the hypodermic needle eased her beautiful consciousness into nothingness
12th June 2021
Copyright © Kai Michael Neumann | Year Posted 2021
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