Please Hear What I Am Not Saying

Don`t be fooled by the face i wear,for i wear a thousand masks and none of them are me.Don`t be fooled, for god sake don`t be fooled I give the impression that im secure,that confidence is my name and coolness is my game,and i need nobody,but don`t believe me. Beneath dwells the real me, in confusion,fear and loneliness that`s why i hide behind of this mask i`ve created,to shield me from the glance that knows,but such a glance is my salvation,that it is followed by salvation, it is followed by loveIt`s the only thing that can liberate me from my own prison walls. I`m afraid that deep down i`m nothing and no good and you will reject me. And so begins the parade of masks,i idly chatter to and tell you everything that means nothing,and nothing that is everything that is is crying within me,so please listen carefully as i try to hear what i`m not saying. I want to be genuine spontanious and me but you please help me,hold out your hand. Each time you are understanding, kind and gentle, the harsher i strike back. My heart grows very feeble wings. Your sensitivity, empathy and power of understanding you alone can release me from my self built wall and lies my only hope. Beat down these walls with firm hands,but gentle for a child who is sensitive.I`m someone you know well, for i am every man you meet, i am every woman too... I AM ALSO YOU.
Paul Beadnall. Sponsor Tracie ~*~ A solitary sonnetist Contest Name Everyone knows, anything goes... This was copied from a wall from a Mental hospital wall, i didnt know the Author but do now Mr. David Summers (1966) . This shone light back into my days.. I read this when i was in a torrid time in a mental hosptal ( unknown author)
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Brown Avatar
October 24, 2011 at 10:39 AM
Congratulations on your win in Tracie's "Everyone Knows" contest Paul. Love, Carol
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October 22, 2011 at 8:36 PM
Congrats Paul on a super fantastic top ten win with elegant poetry luv.. so awesome ..
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October 23, 2011 at 10:23 AM
Thanks alot Linda-Marie appreciated as always from Paul.
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October 22, 2011 at 2:21 PM
great job my friend congrats on your win. cory
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October 23, 2011 at 10:05 AM
Thanks cory appreciated blessings from Paul
Quigley Avatar
October 22, 2011 at 1:03 PM
Well done Cory. You gave us a peek behind the mask that we all wear. Congratulations on your win
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October 22, 2011 at 2:28 PM
No problem Bob and thanks alot appreciated with blessings from Paul.
Quigley Avatar
October 22, 2011 at 1:05 PM
Don't know where I got Cory. Meant Paul. Too great a piece to congratulate the wrong person.
Taylor Avatar
October 22, 2011 at 12:59 PM
Congrats on your win, Paul. Nice going. Ralph
Guzzi Avatar
July 25, 2011 at 8:36 PM
it's so hard to find oneself and to take the responsibility for the doing! Congrad's on your win. Light & Love
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July 26, 2011 at 6:27 AM
Thank yo very much Debbie for your kind commenton this poem always appreciated and encouraging. Blessings Paul
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July 24, 2011 at 5:21 PM
alot of for real goods in this write! congratualtions to you Paul
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July 25, 2011 at 7:49 AM
Cheerts Robert for your kind comment , much appreciated.. blessings .. Paul
Sweetheart Avatar
July 24, 2011 at 2:50 PM
Congrats Paul on your great first place win in the Mask contest luv... super...
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July 25, 2011 at 7:51 AM
THANK YOU VERY MUCH Linda-Marie. My first ever contest winner, but i can`t take full credit for but .. Blessings .. Paul ..
Brown Avatar
July 24, 2011 at 11:33 AM
Congratulations on your well deserved win in Nette's "Mask" contest Paul. Love, Carol
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July 24, 2011 at 11:44 AM
Thanks very much Carol ... blessings,have a nice sunday ..Paul
Freeman Avatar
July 23, 2011 at 2:59 PM
Paul, A pleasure to see your deserving poem honered in first. Congratulations. Agape, Moses
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July 24, 2011 at 12:59 AM
Thanks alot John ;)
Kearley Avatar
July 22, 2011 at 11:05 AM
Yes, This is a very strong write you have here! Thank you for telling me about it.I enjoyed the read.
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July 25, 2011 at 7:53 AM
Cheers mate,appreciated blessings paul
Ball Avatar
July 2, 2011 at 4:33 PM
This is such a poignant piece, filled with angst and uncertainty but the ironic part is the speaker doesn't seem to realize that everyone wears a mask of one kind or another. You see what people allow you to see. Great stuf here. God Bless, JB
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July 25, 2011 at 7:54 AM
Thanks very much,Judy blessings Paul
Long Avatar
June 29, 2011 at 8:00 PM
very powerful write you have here. cory
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July 25, 2011 at 7:55 AM
THANKS VERY MUCH Cory blessings Paul
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