Please?

I have never felt true hunger , though is hungering with your eyes credible? Looking everywhere in a cynical blur in contempt of other people. Knowledge known but never revealed in my ancient mind until reminded... is a beautiful thing, if known how to control.... Why? I control because like a madman i will begin to question even my own sanity as i pick and weave through humans destination to the end. If not what will happen to me, i will spiral to the bottom like theres no more to drop to, and at the bottom i will ponder..should i keep going, because at every end isn't there a beginning? Like when a VCR comes to the end, doesn't it automatically rewind? Is the essence of time alike? Let me wander my mind freely, and bother me not, as i enjoy myself, because guess what? For once in my life i am.....teaching and learning at the same time...as i think of what artist drew me on this world...I smile for the umpteenth time of my life, though remember always. I'm not there, but your here....with me.