Passenger

I am an impostor.
There was a person inside 
Who felt my eyes,
And told me I wouldn’t 
Make it back alive.

I am ineffective.
The autumn came through like
Trains passing underground.
I am late to the present;
I am late to the waking;
I am late to the person I was becoming
Before I knew I was waiting.

I am late to understanding what it takes 
To love something you so long have hated.
I am outside looking in from a window
At myself like a stranger.

Who am I and what have I done?
Who am I and what would I become?

Without the knife and the night that came 
Like a train 
That I watched pass as I stood at the gate?

I am estranged.
You can’t love me because I'll never do the same.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2015

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