Paranoid Nights

Waves of nausea crash against my splintering ribcage,
stomach churning, bile burning through esophageal walls.
Choking on paranoia-fueled delirium,
self-inflicted wounds etched upon a fragile psyche,
all while I try to hold on to some semblance of my humanity.
Push and pull, breaking down walls,
then building them back up, reinforced.
Love never came easy in delusion-filled memories,
always hovering at the cusp of fiction,
ready to strike like a coiled python.
Then, like glass, tears would cascade down,
begging for forgiveness.
Paranoia-induced hallucinations gripped my marrow again,
coursing through tainted bloodstreams,
blinding any sense of reason.
So life imitated drug-soaked nightmares
as my security slipped through calloused fingers once more.
While the rain pummels down against abandoned dreams,
I am haunted by you in this empty house.
Nothing but phantoms of the past roam
in the dead of night,
wailing in the deafening silence,
a requiem for my inner demons’ eternal torment.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2024

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mysore Avatar
November 10, 2024 at 4:22 AM
'love- hovering at the cusp of fiction'/'Nothing but phantoms of the past roam' beautiful write dear poet. congratulations on your win. Cheers !!!
Jama Avatar
November 10, 2024 at 5:23 AM
Thank you so much.
Liguori Avatar
November 10, 2024 at 12:59 AM
So emotional!!! Your words are gripping!!! Nice job in the contest!!! Keep writing!!
Jama Avatar
November 10, 2024 at 5:23 AM
Thank you so much for reading and placing me in your contest.
Empress Avatar
October 17, 2024 at 6:26 AM
Helloi grumpy! You do dark poems so well and youv written about paranoia so well and the way youv made this flow with such powerful diction truly left me in awe speechless! I love so many lines in this especially “ So life imitated drug-soaked nightmares as my security slipped through calloused fingers once more.“ wow drug soaked nightmares???? I wish i came up with that! Youv done an impeccable take on this theme! “ I am haunted by you in this empty house. Nothing but phantoms of the past roam” i teared up as i read that! Gosh this is one of my most fave poems ever written by you again! Just love it!!!!! You kno i love dark poems like this one! Its just soul hitting! Always a pleasure reading your work
Jama Avatar
October 17, 2024 at 7:30 AM
Thank you Ink for the thoughtful feedback and all the support.
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