Painisreal

Everyday I'm stuck in between a living nightmare and the path I'm paving to happiness... And the pain I feel is real just like the mistakes I made that got me here And there's nothing more That I hold dear Than the only thing Thats missing here And Here's an understatement I'm doing better now than I was before Really lucky to be living Sitting here breathin And not dead on the floor And even though I've changed and i thought I crossed the finish line It doesn't change the damage done Doesn't bring home my only son Lucidity is now my state of mind Where I feel hate for myself for choices I've made over time I'll tell myself to keep trying Because it probably does mean something And I won't give up doing the next best thing even though getting there seems so far away Because I want to believe I'll be happy If I do all these things Because if not life sucks and has no meaning.