Painisreal

Everyday I'm stuck
 in between a living nightmare 
and the path I'm paving to happiness...

And the pain I feel is real 
just like the mistakes I made
 that got me here 

And there's nothing more
That I hold dear

Than the only thing 
Thats missing here

And Here's an understatement
I'm doing better now
 than I was before

Really lucky to be living
Sitting here breathin
And not dead on the floor

And even though I've changed 
and i thought I crossed the finish line

It doesn't change the damage done
Doesn't bring home my only son

Lucidity is now my state of mind
Where I feel hate for myself
for choices I've made over time

I'll tell myself to keep trying
 Because it probably does 
mean something

And I won't give up 
doing the next 
best thing

 even though getting there
 seems so far away 

Because I want to believe I'll be happy
If I do all these things

Because if not life sucks and has no meaning.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2017

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December 21, 2017 at 8:36 AM
life always has meaning Kelsey... you will be happy, all pain is temporary... Welcome to poetry soup..
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