Pain-An Addiction

I am reduced to a fraction...by the force of the friction... & pain has become my only addiction...! Tears,tears & only tears... Have befriended me all these years...! The silence of loneliness or the loneliness of silence... Have made me insane..crippled each sense... Even the breathes enquire me time & again... As to why I'm living in this acute pain..! My heartbeats were never so rude to me... They are abusing me so petulantly... They wish to escape the burden of my heart... Knowing they would never have another fresh start....! Every second of my life passe s painfully.... Trampled by Time so ruthlessly... Sometimes I hear my rebel voice... That a one-time-death will be a better choice... Yeah better because I die again & again.. Succumbing to the drafts of pain.. Although it is an addiction... Each day is a painful addition...! But wait-a-minute,how will I kill my heart.. Where she stays like a pivotal part.. Only to save her presence in me... I have to live,& die, painfully...!