Pain

there are good days that seem great they give me hope make me believe things are different that they have changed then we have our bad days the absolute worse those days I wish I could end everything my life I didn't matter I wish I could end it all just so the fighting would go away those days I feel helpless out of control hurt betrayed so many emotions life sucks and I want to just give up and then I look at my children and I cant be selfish and leave them behind because I love them and I want them to know that... know that that feeling would never go away or fade it is unconditional it will never ever go away and I feel a little bit better gain some strength enough to pick myself and just go on enough to get me through whatever was left before you would stop then I would be okay