Outcast

My thoughts hits deeper than I expected More like a forlorn and lonely figure I think too hard and felt the world is against me How harsh it is, they all made me feel like an outcast Could this be true?, Questions I am still finding answers to @Tomide Eyes filled with tears Heart filled with fears What have I done? To be like this I don't want to but it seems my destiny is written like this @Hussainy Just like NF I began my search and quest for answers Unintended pulse drove me out of my lane My meticulous push made me realise That even in the midst of friends I became an outcast The journey I started, this I don't want to end @Tomide Am I different from what I thought I am? Why can't they just see me for who I am? I have suffered from loneliness no happiness and joy They reject me and forbid me from playing with their children right when am a boy Life is so unfair While other people live in happiness I live in despair I feel like committing suicide for I have not been treated in this world with justice and fair @ Hussainy Well funnily enough,I realised I was riding a bicycle without pedals Plunging headlong to looming dangers Though,I don't mind not to be an outcast Because amidst friends and the world,with mockery eyes and criticising fingers I embraced I felt love and betrayal were my best friends @Tomide Tired of playing with myself It's natural to have a hate for oneself But what can I do I didn't climb up the step? It seems difficult but I have to figure it out myself Without waiting for support, encourage or help @Hussainy For all I want, a strong will to keep pushing further For loving this much,I drew strength and what I was given in accordance The burns and hurts I still feel could lift me over the bridge of doom Still yet a feeble mind I possessed An outcast I have become @Tomide On whom should I place the blame? On my parents who failed to protect my name? I know am a human just like them I have a soul and a body just like them But whatever I did still not seems to please them because they think and always feel like am not of them @Hussainy For it is the world against me I beg to know,if these feelings are not willed from within Maybe I wouldn't be allowed to wallow deep in my thoughts As I succumb to their claims,for an outcast I did still be For this are my intentions in my utmost perception @Tomide