Out of Sight, But Still In Mind

in reality we all say, its nuthang like the first time. . but what could we possibly be talmboud ? in my case, i would usually be talmboud loosing my virginity, but itss nuthang like that! its nuthangg like the first time whn love almost blew my mind..... It wus like the perfect little love story , written all outt . . movies every weekend withh three othr friends, chillinn' everyy friday, & sunday!, kisses everyyDAY! & a mother N' law and daughter N' law connection.. if i wusn't in my right mind, i wouldv'e thought that it wus `Truu` love, but now that i look at ALL the imperfections that i ignored , i see that it wus FAR from `Truu` lovee ;/ . some ppl say i played myself for you & i couldn't much agree more causee i see it now . . i knew youu had ths chick & that bxtch on thaa side, but i wus too young/ dumb/ & blinded by what i thought wus love that i simply ignored thee fact that youu were jus usinn me for some type of confidence boostt now that i look backk on all those words we shared, the memories never forgotten, & the fact that i said i'd always be here & for some reason i [ meant ] it . . but i guess tha only reason wus because youu said it back, but the only difference is you DIDN'T mean it ! now i'm still stuckk while you're lovinn her & i'm stuck trying to find that one boy who reminds me of you. . i came across a few, but it felt too good to be truu :// .. now youu're leavinn out of sight,but still in mind & i'm sad, still loving you & mad because i cnt rewind! if youu ONLY kneww . . . .