Our Father

This is where my grief met Jeremiah's lamentations OUR FATHER As far as the east is from the west, that’s how far the Lord has removed our transgressions from us? Why do I feel not far removed from my sins or the sins of others? Suffocated by faults and indiscretions of human-ness that lacks discretion Of fearlessness; the lack of intuition Of childishness but a child born in the wrong time? But God’s timing is always right? Can you see this Lord? Is heaven mastering this disaster only for our inferior minds to finally resurrect from the shambles? And realise that You have been building us a new city all along. I believe in the Author of fate so maybe that is where my hope springs from Or from the crippling fear of the effects of reality Disappointment Shock Is this how feeble we are as humans? How our chromosomes, blood cells, alleles all created from dust can just wither away when one gust of wind comes before we can find shelter How our intangible thoughts are invisible holograms that effect nothing Our father who art in heaven should we lose faith while we are on earth because there is plenty in heaven? Will we make it the pearly gates with our infirm humanly wrongs and all the cavities punctured in our teeth And speak to the guardians in low tones of how we praised the Creator on earth forgetting to mention how our own faults in the sweetened land He placed us in; have led us to corroded incisors We consume more sweetened sin than soured heaven. I cannot stare at my reflection in the mirror because I feel like a ghost And legend has it that once the undead return they leave no shadow They simply exist among other human humans Who put status updates on their whatsapps saying ‘be still and know that I am God?’ It is easy to be transfixed in the same position when the walls around you are not caving in I feel I have been saying much without saying anything, Because maybe this conversation should just be between me and Him But I do not know what to say to Him My human human-ness has failed me once again So maybe He could just look into my laden heart, desperate thoughts and fearful mind And decide where I can go from here Where they can go from here Where we can go from here... For Thine is the kingdom, the power and the glory forever and ever Amen.