One Pill Away From Away
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One Pill Away From Away
Depressed...
If this poem could
be that one word it would.
I suffered from wanting to be
and not wanted to be with she,
that beautiful woman whom
I proposed to on one knee
that was supposed to be
my wife.
Daughters...three,
I knew in the beginning
that accepting her I
would have to accept
who she became to be.
So after many many years of us
I just wanted to be free
From our 2 and a half year
Relation - Friendship - Dating
Sometimey - complicated
What the hell is going on with us!?
I, love my music but I,
Love my woman but she,
Doesn't love hip hop and I,
Can't lose my friends and she,
Could care less about the personal
passions I pursue paving the way
patiently day in and out making
things happen from my 9 to 5 pay
plus planning days with her
missing events feeling as if I'm
in a pull and pull situationship.
Depressed...
If this poem could
be that one word it would.
I knew one sleeping pill wouldn't be
enough, so I tried three. I just
wanted to be away from this
reality. Actually, mixing the pills
with wine left me buzzed and
afraid. I was becoming that guy who
I said I would never be. A now half empty
glass of wine and I popped 6 more, and
maybe a half bottle of Nyquil would help
me rest. I now laid in my tub preparing for
my watery death. But there was no last
breath. Somehow I woke up and walked
slowly to by bed,
and slept, and dreamed, and wept.
Depressed...
...and now I look back and I'm disgusted with my
selfish self, but that situationship I had long left
once everything went left. I'm thankful for being
here and for the piece of mind that I have left.
I was one pill away.....from away.
Written on 12/8/2015 @ 7:38am EST
Copyright © Mister Write | Year Posted 2015
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