One Last Goodnight Kiss

one last goodnight kiss on a cheek that is so cold the finale of this amazing chapter feels like a lonely, dark cave of unpredictability here i am consumed in the center of a calm quiet that i will never feel ever again i feel so blank....so sad....so bewildered....so lost....so gone one last goodnight kiss as i say goodbye and i love you for the last time ever it is the beginning of the green phase of life without you....i ask questions....i make wishes....i pray prayers based on imagination....i miss you with such an incomparable rapidity here i am consumes in a painstakingly lonely realm of grief and heartache....i have regrets....i wonder why....i think of what if....i write journal entries in my mind....i put my thoughts to paper....i begin to craft them into poems....they become my outlet....i think i am pretty good at it....i call myself Poetic Lefty....i wonder if you would be proud of me....to the beach i go....smiling brightly in then contentment of precious memories of you