One Dreadful Day

As spring showers soaked through to my soft skin,
In hapless home in youthful age akin,
Through stabbing sorrow's sleeplessness I knew,
I grappled grief as fantom fears came true.
He was gone, greener pastures caused his leave.
My haunted heart was left bereft to grieve.
For seven yearning years his loss for me
Caused suffering in mindful misery.
Those years that passed helped heal my hurting heart.
He returned, contritely claimed a new start.
My longing love fraught fitfully with cares....
God had answered this mourning mother's prayers.

3-19-22

*Note: when my son was 14 and a half his biological father stole him, taking him 2,300 miles away with promises of greener pastures. It was the worst regret of his young life. After seven years at the age of 21 he returned home. We remained very close until his recent death at 44. 

~First Place~
My Lost and Found Love Poetry Contest
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Sambourne Avatar
August 31, 2022 at 8:01 PM
Terribly sad to read about the loss of your beloved son. Fortunately you shared some years of reconciliation, re-acquaintance, + supportive love. Thank you for sharing this very personal story.Take care of yourself. Sincerest regards, Brian
Marcum Wong Avatar
August 31, 2022 at 9:27 PM
My son knew I always loved him. It was my ex husband I had to forgive and I did so long ago. I know I will be reunited with my son when I cross over too. Thank you for your kind sentiments Brian. Blessings xxoo
Raven Avatar
July 25, 2022 at 6:58 AM
Hi Connie, this is another special write. You let your emotions flow and one can understand all the emotions. I am glad that your son was forgiven and you had a good relationship. I am so sad to hear that he died. Parents always expect to go before their children. You are such a special lady, Connie. Through everything, you ever let your heart sing, no matter the pain. Has to be a fave. Hugs always ..... Mike. XX. I am glad God answered your prayers.
Marcum Wong Avatar
August 31, 2022 at 9:22 PM
It was my ex husband I had to forgive, not my young Naïve son. I forgave him long ago. My son always knew how much I loved and missed him. Thank you for honoring my poem with a fave dear friend. Blessings xxoo
Foster Avatar
June 16, 2022 at 8:25 AM
Forgiveness is key. Acceptance of it is just as important. They are two sides of the same coin. Prayers... Lovely write. Ann (my kid left with her father at 21, for no reason she stated at all. Autism is a funny thing...)
Marcum Wong Avatar
August 31, 2022 at 9:25 PM
Being a parent can be very difficult, especially when there is loss. Thank you. Blessings xxoo
Delaney Avatar
June 3, 2022 at 9:26 AM
Dear Connie: I am glad your hubby was finally able to forgive him - for his own sake. Those kind of resentments can do as much harm to a person as the betrayal itself. Blessings sweet friend. SuZ
Marcum Wong Avatar
August 31, 2022 at 9:24 PM
Thank you SuZ. Life certainly teaches us lessons that are challenging at times. I think my son is with my husband now on the other side. Hugs xxoo
Drowley Avatar
June 2, 2022 at 10:12 AM
Excellent write. A wonderfully answered prayer. Many subsequent years of joy!
Delaney Avatar
June 1, 2022 at 3:20 AM
Dearest Connie: I didn’t know your son had left you in the earlier years……what a torturous episode that must have been. What a forgiving heart you have. I am glad you were able to have a good relationship once he returned home. Hugs, SuZ .
Marcum Wong Avatar
June 1, 2022 at 1:41 PM
It was my husband who had raised him who felt so betrayed he could not forgive him for seven years. I tried everything. Finally my husband forgave him and he came home at 21. He lived on his own when he returned. We were always close and remained so during his time away. Thank you SuZ. Blessings xxoo
Tor Avatar
May 29, 2022 at 1:21 PM
Connie Im so glad he came back. What a parent goes through for their childrem. Im so sorry for your loss. I hope you had wonderful years shared with him. God bless you. xoxo
Marcum Wong Avatar
June 1, 2022 at 1:54 PM
I do have so many memories. He always made me laugh. He was very good to me and never forgot Mother’s Day or my birthday. Thank you Michael. Love and Blessings, Connie
Proxenos Avatar
April 30, 2022 at 5:21 AM
Connie I read and re-read this poem and was very touched by it - i thought I had answered you, I am so sorry Connie, your write fluttered through to the very core of me as I felt the emotions you must have gone through. A Soulful write, with intense sentiment throughout. Hugs and blessings, Jennifer
Marcum Wong Avatar
June 1, 2022 at 1:52 PM
After my son’s death I have become close to my stepson, my late husband’s only son. He brings me much comfort. He had two strokes after an operation for his sudden aneurism and he is in hospital learning to walk again. He calls me Mom and I feel I have one son left now along with my three daughters. Thank you Jennifer. I appreciate you caring. Love and Blessings, Connie xxoo
Legros Kelley Avatar
April 29, 2022 at 11:25 PM
Connie, your testimony of faith after all your losses is beautiful. I think of you at times, not just when I see your poems. You have had an impact on my life. Your poems are beautiful, through so much pain, and love, you still have such beautiful faith. God bless you. My heart hurts for your losses, and I wish I could hug you. I pray you feel the sweet hug from our Lord right now. God bless you. ~BJ
Marcum Wong Avatar
June 1, 2022 at 1:46 PM
He struggled here in this lifetime, but he married a wonderful woman and left me with his precious 11 year old son who is now 12. I know he is happy in God’s care. Thank you so much for caring BJ. Love and blessings Connie
Baker Avatar
April 27, 2022 at 12:00 AM
What a tragedy when he left and a joy to have him return. Sorry for your lost, but glad you were able to re-establish your relationship before death took him. "Be of good cheer, for I have overcome death", sayeth our Lord Jesus. Hugs, Bill
Marcum Wong Avatar
April 27, 2022 at 2:26 AM
I accept my time with him as joy in my life. My other children are close to me and that helps a lot. Blessings xxoo
Brul Avatar
April 26, 2022 at 9:56 PM
I was teary-eyed while reading this. A very moving story of a love lost and found. Congratulations.
Marcum Wong Avatar
April 27, 2022 at 2:24 AM
Thank you JCB. My son became a wonderful husband and father though they lived across the ocean in California I saw them at least twice a year. I know he will greet me when I cross over. Blessings xxoo
Kerr Avatar
April 26, 2022 at 3:47 AM
Hi Connie, Congratulations on your first place selection. Yours is an epic work of great integrity and deep emotion. Thanks for your kind soupmail on my entry and your observations on it. Warm wishes Howard
Marcum Wong Avatar
April 27, 2022 at 2:20 AM
You are very welcome Howard. There are so many great poets here it is difficult to keep up. Thank you. Blessings xxoo
Alex Avatar
April 22, 2022 at 9:11 PM
Great story with beautiful alliteration. Congratulations!
Marcum Wong Avatar
April 27, 2022 at 2:15 AM
Thank you very much Christuraj. Blessings xxoo
Mcintosh Avatar
April 19, 2022 at 1:43 PM
This is brilliant! So amazing and so sad at the same time. I didn't ever have a child, but mourned for that loss, but can't imagine having one and losing them. So sorry. God bless you, Love, Gina
Marcum Wong Avatar
April 27, 2022 at 2:14 AM
I have three daughters but only one son. He always made me laugh and we were close. I am close with all my children which makes me a very fortunate mother Gina. I am sorry you did not get to experience motherhood, but I will bet you are a most wonderful daughter to your mother. I find comfort knowing he was happy with his dear wife and he got to be a loving father. We are all close. Thank you for such a lovely comment. Blessings xxoo
Kendrick Avatar
April 18, 2022 at 12:56 PM
It reads as if you had a rocky road with this experience in life. I am saddened for you at the death of your son. I am glad that you got to reconnect with him and have those 23 years together. I appreciate the visit to my page. Sara
Marcum Wong Avatar
April 18, 2022 at 11:19 PM
We never fought Sara so the time I spent with him was the best. He was a wonderful caring father. I am very grateful he left me a beautiful grandson who is 12 this year. Thank you Blessings xxoo
Ray Choudhury Avatar
April 15, 2022 at 9:08 AM
Dear Connie, a wonderful, but sad part of life you have expressed with your gifted pen. Your son was a blessing - and he spent many blessed years with his Mom. Thank you for visiting and commenting on my poems. Your comments are inspiring, touching like your poems are! I get encouraged when I read your comments, and feel myself fortunate to belong to a community of such gifted, and kind poets. Keep creating, Dearest Friend - writing is healing too- look forward to reading and learning.
Marcum Wong Avatar
April 18, 2022 at 11:16 PM
He was happy with his wife and son Mala which give me comfort. Thank you for your insightful comment. Writing does help heal. Blessings xxoo
Goldsmith Avatar
April 14, 2022 at 8:08 AM
Your "One Dreadful Day" is a wonderful yet very sad write. Thanks for adding your note. So sorry. I wish you would write more. I love to read your writes. Have a Blessed Day and A Very Blessed Easter......................
Marcum Wong Avatar
April 18, 2022 at 11:14 PM
I finally posted a new poem Paula. I have been under the weather so my muse is resting. Thank you my friend. Blessings xxoo
Salehi Avatar
April 13, 2022 at 1:59 PM
Wow, so sad dear Connie... remember the good times.
Marcum Wong Avatar
April 18, 2022 at 11:12 PM
I think about them often Pashang. We laughed a lot. Thank you very much. Blessings xxoo
Y. Avatar
April 13, 2022 at 8:50 AM
Hi Connie, You have penned such a heart-tugging piece. What you went through was a mother’s(parent’s) nightmare. I'm so glad your prayers were answered and you reunited with your son. I felt your heartbreak in every word. Thanks for sharing such a well-written and poignant write-Alexis
Marcum Wong Avatar
April 18, 2022 at 11:11 PM
I miss him. The last time we spoke was about two weeks before the stroke took him and we chatted for about two and a half hours. We didn’t visit on the phone often so that was a blessing. Thank you very much. Blessings xxoo
Sangster - K Avatar
April 8, 2022 at 6:11 PM
Dear Connie, I could feel the raw emotion in your poem. And as I read each line it hit me deeply. I am so, so sorry to hear that you endured years of pain and heartache but I am also relieved to know that he returned to you and that you were very close until his passing. Sending hugs and love to you. Anne
Marcum Wong Avatar
April 18, 2022 at 11:09 PM
He was my only son I raised. I have a dear stepson who I almost lost but he is in hospital learning how to walk again after a stroke. I appreciate your heartfelt comment. Thank you very much Anne. Blessings xxoo
Daniel Avatar
April 8, 2022 at 6:35 AM
What a dreadful thing to have endured, Connie! I'm glad he came back and you could spend many years together:)
Marcum Wong Avatar
April 18, 2022 at 11:06 PM
Thank you Jo. He was happy with his wife and son and that gives me comfort. His son was eleven when he passed last year. I have been blessed with my children. Blessings xxoo
Watt Avatar
April 6, 2022 at 11:25 AM
Connie, your heart is on your poetic sleeve in a most touching way with this poem. Your bittersweet account of seven missing years in your son's life is poignantly told and the "stabbing sorrow's sleeplessness" is balanced with the ending line of God answering your heartfelt prayers, and the author's note of remaining close for the rest of his life. You courageously bring us along on the trail of tears the way you write of your sorrows is an inspiration to us all. What a wonderful and compassionate heart you have. This is going in my faves for many reasons. Hugs ~ John
Watt Avatar
April 6, 2022 at 7:04 PM
<3
Marcum Wong Avatar
April 6, 2022 at 6:47 PM
You were on my mind so much today I had to get online and read one of your poems. I think I felt your visit. I truly appreciate you honoring this poem with a fave John. I have been so busy the past two weeks. No time for poetry. Thank you very much for your deep understanding of my poem. Blessings xoxo
Manassian Avatar
April 3, 2022 at 11:38 PM
Oh Connie...what pain that must have caused your heart. So sorry to read of his passing as well. Dear...may you continue to cherish the times you had together. Blessings.
Dietrich Avatar
April 2, 2022 at 6:34 PM
Hope to see more poems from you soon
Dietrich Avatar
April 2, 2022 at 6:34 PM
Connie I am now seeing your advice here but I did not take it . Instead I imagined my french Canadian and invented a story where we were together during WW 2. Haha
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