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One Dimensional

We must be careful that we don’t become
As one dimensional as our shadow 
Life is an ever-changing thing
What we are today 
May not be what we are tomorrow
We must learn how to adapt
To the ever changing tides of life
I have been questioning who I am
Because in the last five years
My life and who I am has changed many times
The devil attacks me on many levels
For he knows how to distort the truth
And turn my mind against myself
Thankfully my wife knows how to help me see
That even though my disabilities keep me from work
My own desire to help others
Keeps me busy throughout each and everyday
Many elderly people in my community
Have come to depend on me in many ways
I found out that I won’t be released to work till 09
If even then
For almost two years I have been a housewife
Battling diseases and injuries
Waiting and hoping to get back to work
Now I learn that may not happen without retraining
I don’t really even know what this poem is about
All I know is that the Lord is leading me to something
And the devil is trying to get me to throw it all away
I feel like a ping-pong ball
Getting slapped back and forth between the two
I know that I’ve became a good housewife
And never does anyone ask me for help
That I don’t do all I can to help them
The Lord blesses me for my efforts
As my wife comforts me
Whatever the Lord leads me to be
I will become
Because my wife has ask me to not be
As one dimensional as my shadow


You know I posted this poem (if you could 
even call it that) and deleted it three times
in a row. I think I'm asking for prayer for
guidance. My wife thinks I'm right where I
need to be and I should just accept it and
keep doing what I'm doing and go back to
Collage full time. This sure isn't what I thought
recovery would be. God Bless you all.

Copyright © Michael Jordan | Year Posted 2008

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Colin Mitchell Williams Date: 10/21/2008 9:53:00 AM A Brave and heartfelt write Micheal. I find the truth is, that nobody really knows what they are doing and suffering make it worse... but I also find it has a lot to do with focus... focusing on what you "do" have and what you "can" do.. its hard I know when you look around and see the world behaving with what appears to be a Lucky normality... I would say "go back to Collage"... what you discover there may give you all the answers you need.... don't judge your work by the cleverness of others Login to Reply

Diana Hill Date: 8/30/2008 6:38:00 AM This is from the heart. God uses our words to help other people walk in His foot steps. Your wife is given to you from God, listen to her she loves you. I wrote to you on the e-mail that you sent did you get it. Login to Reply

Vince Suzadail Jr. Date: 8/28/2008 9:19:00 AM Hang in there Michael. The toughest roads always are the most rewarding. God Bless. Keep on truckin'. Vince Login to Reply

Carrie Richards Date: 8/27/2008 6:24:00 AM Dear friend. Your writings are the first I've read today, I hear such pain and worry in your words. After all you have been through in the past, there are reasons things happen the way they do. A plan that we don't always understand. You have a gift to give others, and are doing it every day right here on the Soup. You are a brightness to others in trouble.Listen and embrace your wife's faith in you.Keep the hope alive, and know we think of you even when the computer is turned off. Love, Carrie Login to Reply

Christy Hardy Date: 8/27/2008 6:03:00 AM Michael, sometimes we are blinded by what is right in front of our eyes. God has a plan, but until He is ready to reveal it, you must keep your Faith. Your wife is your beacon in the night, trust her as you love her..I believe your calling will be a Minister, I have a strong feeling God will take you places you never dreamed you would be...I love you my friend, you are surronded by many blessings....Always, Christy Login to Reply

P Sheart Date: 8/27/2008 6:00:00 AM Hello Michael Being concious of all that we feel is what it means to be a spiritual warrior. When you feel all of your intentions in your beautiful heart Michael, feel not what your mind tells you but what your heart tells you. A beautiful spirit of love and light that is interdependant on friends and family to make ones own heart sing! We all need each other thank goodness right. Smile....Stay well Many blessings to you and your family. Love Light Truth Patricia Login to Reply

Michael Degenhardt Date: 8/27/2008 4:53:00 AM I think you are clearly revealing yourself even moreto us. You'reopening up and my friend, there's no shame in being a housewife, if that's what God wants. We help each other daily in so many different ways. Think what it would be like for just 1 person if your weren't there. I bet you'll become aware of yourself even more then. Maybe not a poem my friend, but it is an excellent write about a terrific individual. Michael Login to Reply

Kristin Reynolds Date: 8/27/2008 3:40:00 AM My dear, trust your wife (and God) for they both know just where you should be and what you should be doing (I think you already know that, but may have restless feet like I do) but in the end, you will be right where you need to be. The future is now, live like there is no tomorrow...God bless, Kristin Login to Reply