Once, When I Was Beautiful

Once, when I was beautiful, 
I was stunning, perfect to behold,
When I was beautiful, inside I was dead, 
I was numb, barren, cold,

Unable to feel things that mattered, 
Emotionally lost, I’d gone elsewhere,
Socially, I was beautiful on the outside, 
But inside, well, I just didn’t care.

I thought emotion was a gauge of how good I was, 
I assumed I was right,
I thought I had to pose happy all the time, 
Every day and every dark night,

I allowed others to choose my thoughts, 
And I thought feelings would kill,
I thought feeling sad meant I lead a sad life, 
But that was all until,

I dropped the façade, I threw that cold crutch of fake, 
Throwing all that I knew,
And learnt about others, loved me for me, 
Didn’t judge, and then, I emotionally grew.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2017

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