Once More I Failed the Truth

Once more, I failed the truth. The truth of this life, of my life The path, the journey The whole purpose of me being here. I became to complaisant, Too sure of myself I thought that I was invincible to the Petty misgivings of this life But I was so wrong. I didn’t even see it coming, To be completely honest Blindsided by the tiniest speck of self doubt. A minute amount of unsurety that snowballed Into what you see before you now. I thought for sure that I had broken the cycle That has held on for lifetimes and has brought About my demise time after time I changed my actions and reactions to the same Repeated patterns trying to change the outcome But once again I began the task of my own self sabotage. Allowing the self limiting beliefs to creep in and settle Snugly in the crevices and crannies of my own subconscious. As I sit here, upon the edge of the unknown I search for reasons not to just jump and end it all Finally putting an end to this failure I call my life Because once more I failed my to follow my true path. I look out into the darkness that has seemed to surround me It becomes so black that I am not completely sure If my eyes are open or shut. I cry out in the darkness as I begin to take that final step And then I see it… It is just a small speck of light way off in the distance. I am not entirely sure that I haven’t imagined it, A cruel joke played on my eyes by my mind But the speck becomes clearer, And I realize that it is getting larger It seems that it is changing the dark, Not chasing it away but Actually transmuting the darkness into the light. I watch this light show before me And I begin to understand My path becomes clear before me, I now know what I have to do.