On My Own

So alone inside Tears in my soul For I am so far away From everyone I feel so numb inside Lifeless as a corpse Superficial smiles Imitating life around me A spectacular performance You haven't seen the real me And you never will Suspicion arises Scrutinizing every word That is spoken to me Not able to discern A friend from a foe Wishing I was invisible But, needing the adoration That these heartless vultures Shower on me So addicting Like a drug And so deadly To my soul Reminding me again That I am on my own Without a friend in the world