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Okay

Being relentlessly chased by the
Dark night
Breathing right near my ear
The shadows are latched onto my back
Continuous days of
The rain knocking down the roof
Of not being able to see anything
Past the midnight city skyline
Pulling up a smile
Even while the parasite is
Eating me up from the inside
Crying in the dark of the moon
Losing my footing
During the easiest steps I would usually
Be able to break into
Like breathing air
I’m losing air
All these steps
When I feel like I’m past
The hill
I fall down again
To see another one
In front of me
The city lights are dazzling
But I don’t see no face
In the neon billboards
In the headlights of yellow taxis
It’s hard to look up
When you’re anywhere but down
It’s hard to breath
When you’re all but crying your
Heart out
It’s gonna be okay
They say
But I just can’t see it
I just can’t see past this
All my prayers
All seem to fall apart to dust
Giving my everything into what
I do not know
Leaving me
Useless, broken, and dumb
Everything I do just
Feeds the parasite
My pain
My tears
My breath
Breaking down
Losing confidence
In my very own existence
How do I feel I’m okay
When everything is
Crumbling inside
When my outsides are still whole
When the waters are still
To be crashed into shipwreck
The moment I let my shoulders loose
Pressure is closing in
Everything is closing in
Try to scream
But I guess they’ve taken my voice too
I scream nothingness
Into the void
The bright dreams
Tearing up into pieces
Burned down at the stake
Of reality
Holding onto hopes
That vanish once I open my palms
Leaving me with only my teardrops
Walking towards nowhere
Losing everything I thought I was
Losing everything I am
Hands slipping
Hearts breaking
Heads aching
Happiness leaking
Until I’m drained
Of it all
Until there’s
Nothing left

Copyright © Shimokini The Abendrot Poet | Year Posted 2020

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