Oh These Exams

wat to write wat to say.. feeling noise not to explain....... tired of being someones always...... want to be myself for once.... in these days..... getting busy lots of work..... but cant escape the addiction of words......... hearing advice not to write..... start studying textbook wise....... cant explain that noise of mind..... cant stop thoughts of not feeling right..... want to scream want to run..... some where i can have some fun....... fun of reading books in silence..... fun of sharing feeling with violin... no body i need by my side ...... my emptiness is finished with some books a side........ i want to read stores of fairy.... want here poems from nanny... somebody give me a book without pathology..... having pictures of humans..... not any topic human psychology..... want to write whole day.... not like this hiding my self in night dark place........ its not like i dont like my field.... i just want some time to live this feel...... i love when i can do something for others.... but expectation of others and the race of scholars... make me depressed....... these exam whenever they came just make me so tense.. and so dull.....