Oh Nevermind

What have I gotten myself into What have I done Why, and why out of everyone on the planet why did it have to be... Please no one spark a conversation with me I just want to be alone with my empty thoughts Please no one speak to me I barricaded myself in my room my own little fortress of solitude my bed, my own makeshift throne of thorns cause this sticking inside my brain and I can't pull it loose What happened I still can't believe it happened I still can't process what went on but guilt has poisoned my head yet I found that liked it for I enjoyed every moment I spend with her for I enjoyed every second of looking into her eyes for she has the type of personality those beautiful eyes the perfect round face the sweetest smile I've ever seen hair that covers her right eye just perfect Man, I wish I was back in high school for it was only then I had a shot but... I don't know how she feels I'm in a panic She's into someone else and he's into her I haven't seen her in months of six I haven't seen her since I've said farewell to high school farewell to childhood and hello I hate you adult life One night and I come inbetween what's not my right to wreck I'm a mess I mean yes I have feelings for her I mean no I can't but man she makes my head so dizzy and her laugh oh man intoxicating but I don't want to be apart of the millions of guys scrambling for her attention I'm no one and I hardly ever cross her mind but she's been the only thing on my mine since last night... I've said before I've never felt a certain way about certain people Normally I wouldn't be like this frantic, impatient, so reclusive Normally, I could easily fake like my mind's not in water and my head isn't on fire while my body isn't failing to connect to gravity yet... I'm tempted yet hesitant to speak to her today for what if it happens again... I don't know I'm freaking out on the inside cause it's not like me to be this insane about someone I.... oh nevermind...