Off My Pills

I am so lonely I am off my pills I am sitting in church, listening to my father spew his message My eyes are becoming wet As he ages, he becomes set in his ways I don't think he realizes the force of his harsh words There is nothing I can say I sit next to my mother, a healthy three feet between us Any closer and I cringe She stands to testify though the others before her stay seated I do not admire it Their fiery spirits encourage the congregation However, they just make me feel lonely How's college? Do you have a boyfriend? I am off my pills I smile small and shake my head, eyes turning down No, I am alone I am alone and off my pills I am alone, and off my pills, and I daresay I'm more in touch with my doubt than my faith right now I drove separately and parked far from the building I leave church by myself