Ode to the Underachiever

I'm falling back into my old ways.  I wish the urge to change would stay. I'm falling back in love with the thought that I used to run to when I was numb.  I'm falling... I don't know how this happened.  I thought I was done.  The scars faded, and I smiled more.  But I'm falling back into the darkness.  The one that tore my world apart. Soon, the scars will return, and the smile will cease to exist.  I am no longer the person you see. I will only have an imagination of what I could never achieve.