Ocd Manifestation

My thoughts are spiraling out of control. Please make it stop. I am losing my mind. After a while, it will take its toll. Some healthy coping skills are hard to find. Door. Did I lock it? Did I lock the door? What if I didn’t lock it and I die? My thoughts just keep spiraling, more and more. What if it’s all made up, it’s all a lie? The simplest things can turn into death. Can it really be that hard to be heard? Could it be that I am wasting my breath? Nobody hears me. Not a single word. What is this? What is happening to me? Please help. Is it really that hard to see? Written January 7, 2020