Oblivion

My job requires 1% of my energy, concentration and input If it required more i'd probably quit by now if not fired Every evening I walked into my cave But now the cave is crowded Five human beings that require a hi and how was your day Can I sleep at work please? I don't remember fellowship Actually I don't want fellowship I keep wishing for oblivion I don't know how to wake up I don't want to wake up Sometimes I do but when I remember all the explanations I have to give Why's the house dirty Why are the sinks worse Why were you acting cold Why din't you care? Or act like you did All these form a rigid punch I want to knock out the whole damn world Instead of that, I sink, I float, I walk away I swallow pain and feelings There is a whole in my stomach, in my heart and in my head I have questions for God Like where were you? Where are you? Really all those prayers? ohh really? Can I just sleep now.