Numbness

Silent rejection is the worst kind of pain that can exist It is an invisible constant bleeding The only cure is love People might say they love you but do they show it? Are you capable of feeling it? When rejection has been so constant there is a numbness that exudes a non caring attitude Lost I am at times in this world, there are parts of me I have never met Someone once told me if I don't resolve my past , how can I move forward I am moving, but the past walks right beside me I am trying to find someone , but where is he ? How much longer must I wait for him to come to me It is very painful to be invisible and even more painful to not be able to express it those you are invisible too because they will never understand It is an unknown unexpressed depression of sorts I have to maintain face, normality through my inner chaos years of repressed sadness, ignored madness I think everyone else thinks I see, but I know this is all making me blind, and I can not find what is really going to make me free