Numb To Love

You could say you love me and I'll be like "so what" I've been hurt so much that now my heart is locked The key is gone, so it's going to stay like that I'm numb to love and the feelings not coming back I don't trust anyone so I refuse to get close Before they even approach I've already let go My heart has been left broke and I won't allow it to become worse You can say you love me, but I'm numb to those words I keep girls at arms length because they can't handle me My dinners are by myself and candle free I'm not good with feelings and intimacy I suck at love and I'm not built for it mentally I played girls in my younger days as the sex offered a connection But I've always struggled to open up more for fear of rejection Mum put me in care when I was a child so I grew up hating females Slept my way through every girl I met, I'm just being honest with the details My guard is up for good now and it won't be coming down Trying to keep my head above the water so I don't drown I'm looking to the future and love is nothing but a shadow of my past Cupid is dead, I took his bow and put an arrow in his back You could say you love me and I'll be like "so what" I've been hurt so much that now my heart is locked The key is gone, so it's going to stay like that I'm numb to love and the feelings not coming back