Now

Now… I can’t continue in this state of mind No relief and it’s my belief now That I may be past my prime If what I need can never seem to be Who am I failing other than myself? My wife? My children? My life and my reason for being… Because I could care less About my own emotion and welfare Except in the way that it may affect them negatively I’m overburdened with the realization that all I am Is simply not enough anymore And that reaching inside myself for answers Supplies me with none My silence now is both my only friend And my worst enemy Inside or out Outside or in My longing is for neither… To be alone with myself So I may hurt no one other than myself This is my only sanctuary now And while I cannot stand to be alone It is how I feel inside that makes me this way Which for so long has remained unchanged…