Not Today

It has been a while since I’ve sat down to write. It just has seemed lately, that nothing has gone quite right. There are so many emotions streaming through my head. I can't seem to control them, so many things were left unsaid. I let you into a place few have ever been. But after what you did the line you are walking is thin. I thought I could trust you what a silly girl I was. In the end you hurt me like every guy always does. Fool me once shame on you. Fool me twice shame on me. I feel so stupid the real you I didn't see. You made me believe you weren't like the rest. But in the end you turned out worse than I could have guessed. I tried to see the good in you and I did for some time how could I have been so silly to think maybe you could be mine. I really can't believe that I fell for your tricks. There is simply no denying, good and evil just don't mix. I feel so stupid that I could not see, what a jerk you really were and absolutely wrong for me. I should have listened to what all my friend said. “He's no good, watch out,” but I couldn’t get you out of my head. I guess they were right that is so hard to admit. You had me in a choke hold like a drug I couldn't quit. It has been hard not thinking about you, but now I understand it is the right thing to do. I'm done wasting my time on someone who isn't there. I don't need you in my life, I need somebody who cares. So this is my final goodbye I think I can finally say. I deserve so much better. I won’t be thinking about you today.