Not over the fact that I am already over you

Yeah I did not congratulate on your birthday and forgot how old you got, Yeah I did not made comments on the jacket you wore I always found beatifully, Yeah I did not anymore admire your eyes and call them sun over ocean, Yeah I did not hype you up, Yeah I did not help you anymore out. But I did once. Because I cared of what you think. Now I care of how I seem. Even though I know I am trying to protect myself, while ignoring and distancing myself from you is hurting me much more too. From the look of your eyes, I see scare. You don't know how to ecounter me anymore. So you always ask your friends. You try to seem chill, by saying: ,,Give the sheet paper to her, she has a beautiful handwriting" , even though you know I won't answer you anymore. When I got the sheet of paper, you would wait, even ages till I let my pencil slide and you wait for better 1 minute to add and still say: ,,thank you" I am sorry I am acting this way, but I don't know what to say. Since this day, were I tried, and you shut our conversation down that easily. Were I couldn't even tell you ,,no", or see you suffer.